Thursday, May 7, 2015

Happy news

On Sunday night I enrolled in a singing contest. I was sick as a dog and the only reason why I enrolled was because I thought that the first place prize was 200 dollars in cash.

I put my name in the hat at 9 p.m. I did not get called up on stage until midnight. I sing the journey song don't stop believing. There were three judges the highest possible score that you can get is a 30 just like on the show so you think you can dance.

There were about 40 contestants. At 1215 the semifinalists were announced I was one of them. at about 12:30 I was called up to do my final song. I chose greatest hero of all by Whitney Houston.

I got a perfect score again. I was awarded not cash but a $200 gift certificate! despite being in excruciating unbearable physical pain that will not go away, I was mentally on a high for about 48 hours.

It was exciting to have the judges personally come up to me afterwards and tell me what they thought about my voice :-) I have a severe sinus infection and I'm excited because if I can pull this off with a sinus infection, then who knows what I'm made of :-)

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Been locked out for about 10 days

Got locked out of my account, plan on making more regular postings in the future

Skatetown USA

Monday, April 20, 2015

that bad huh?

a woman was in front of me in the grocery store line just now she had a boy of 11 and a boy of about eight. She flipped the magazine backwards so that her boyscannot see the front cover. I knew immediately why she did this and I asked her:" that bad huh?"

She said "my child doesn't need to see soft porn!"  At this point I have not seen what is on the front cover of this magazine which is basically like a Readers Digest.

Without having seen the front cover of whatever it was that she was censoring I said to her:" but we would have to be with our children 24 hours a day and we can't do that therefore we cannot protect them from everything."

She was silent in return. I turned the magazine around to find out what was so offensive, it was a woman in a bikini the top half of her bikini revealed a lot of bust...

Even I don't like seeing women who wear shirts that reveal their breasts, but a bikini top and two different story.

You gotta wonder what else this mom is doing to protect her boys from "everything!"

Friday, April 17, 2015

Wells Fargo really sucks

I do everything I can to avoid in-person interactions with them. Everything has to be a huge ordeal when you go there. The last time I went there they stated that they would do a credit check for me, the guy did small talk for nearly 30 minutes. Shouldn't he be doing the task that I came in for and then if there's time left over we can small talk? but know when he was done with the small talk he said Oh my computers not working and I can't through your credit report I don't know what's wrong I don't know why nothings working...

Today I needed to go in as a very rare thing I needed to buy a check. The teller must have repeated himself 3 or even 4 times. Why didn't I just do this online oh my life would be so much more easier and convenient if I did this online. I think I said don't you want me here in person?

Even after I told him I didn't have a computer at home he still repeated himself as if he was a robot that I should just do it online.

Wells Fargo really suck

Sunday, April 12, 2015

it's been one hell of an anniversary weekend

yes terday was my four year anniversary in mountain town and it's been a hell of a celebration. On Thursday night I got mildly food poisoned. I've been awake for about a week. I found out that you can have free counseling through the local college but I have tremendous Ambivalenceabout any sort of therapy or counseling because of my views on suicide.

I was telling my counselor on Friday that my body is my prison and that the joint and bone and muscle pain and weakness is absolutely unbearable. I made the mistake of trusting I made the mistake of letting my guard down

We had had three conversations about suicide in the past so I thought that I was safe I thought that it is safe to be myself. She knows how I feel about the fact that US society doesn't want animals to suffer but they don't give a god damn about human suffering.

I told her that I was planning on joining final exit network and that people who try to do their own suicides by overdose is oftentimes a mistake because they end up failing in their lives are the worst for it.

 in the midst of my diarrhea and nausia I hear bashing on my door on Friday night. the three cOpskept bashing and bashing and I didn't answer the door. Then I heard this is the police!

I came to the door and I said but I didn't call the police and the officer said we hear that you're planning on committing suicide by gAssing yourself.readers it's like a game of telephone I never said any such thing and I couldn't even imagine who would have called the police on me. They stayed for 30 minutes as I tried to convince them that I wasn't going to take my life todayand that some mistake had been made. the officers tried to get me to discuss what I told my therapist, I ask the cup and my legally required to tell you what I discussed with her? He said no your not I said okay well then I'm not going to say anything

If police think that you're going to take your life on that given day in some cases they force you into psychiatric hospitals which is the most ridiculous place on earth for people who are pro- euthanasia or people who have decided that they cannot go on indefinitely with the suffering of their disease.

I was absolutely furious that the counseling department did this to me and I told them so in a letter which I carefully worded. I told them to stay away from me and not make any more contact with me, I told my Facebook friends that going into therapy or any sort of counseling is a huge risk for anyone who carries a Pro euthanasia Pro assisted suicide stance.

SynchronisticAlly I am watching Law and Order SVU it's the episode entitled mercy where the mother murders the daughter so the daughter doesn't have to go through a life of suffering with a rare and painful disease

One by one I leave every agency in town one by one I leave every practitioner in town one by one I discover that there is gross and competence at every level in every segment of society this is something I've been blogging about since I started my blog 9 years ago and the problem is only getting worse

Monday, April 6, 2015

I just called to say I love you

I can't remember who I told this to but I was telling someone that if I died and every single person in mountain town saw the obituary I am pretty convinced there would be a lot of people at my funeral.

It might seem strange to say that because as far as actual people to hang out with there aren't very many.

I've been blogging about this for many years, it's very strange to feel like all you have are acquaintances but to know that there actually are a number of lives that I've touched here

A man came up to me in the grocery store today and hugged me about 3 years ago he told me that he loves me. He did not mean it in a romantic way he is married with 4 children.

When I left the grocery store and starting on my way home I saw another couple who I've known for almost 4 years, he also told me a couple of years ago that he loves me.

I'm posting this, because I thinkwe never truly realize the magnitude of the number of people we touch in our lifetime