Thursday, August 27, 2015

Intermediate Spanish class

I attended my third session this semester of a free intermediate Spanish class. I'm not so sure I'm going to go back however because even though the teacher is a natural and really fantastic, there is one student who is so domineering that he basically has a one on one relationship with her for the entire class basically question after question after question as if none of the rest of us are in the room. She essentially is abandoning her entire lesson plan to appease him. It is more than annoying and I certainly don't have any control over it. As you can see I am always trying new things in my community. And for all of the problems my community has and there are many I still must say that this is the best American town I have ever lived in in my life. That is not the same thing as saying that I'm a happy person :-)

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

It actually has a name

It's been a problem for years and I just found out that it actually has a name burning mouth syndrome. Need i say more? It's really horrible and you're always thinking about it either you're burning or you're feeling pins and needles. I also have reason to believe that I have Hashimoto's disease which is a thyroid problem. I don't mention the overwhelming majority of issues affecting my quality of life to my doctor because I don't honestly believe that she can do very much to help me but I will mention burning mouth syndrome and I will tell her that I need an MRI of my right shoulder and right arm because the pain is so unbearable and I can't do much at all with my right arm


The last couple of days have been particularly productive. I have gone to two different meetings through this seems like a really good way to meet people where the relationships will go deeper than just acquaintanceships.

Additionally, I've waited years to get things in my apartment repaired because no matter how often I would communicate with management I would never hear anything back. I have put up with two and a half years of my washing machine tearing up my clothes and my dryer taking 4 hours to dry one load. Additionally in the maintenance man replaced my venetian blinds today and finally replaced my screen. Both things were a problem for well over a year. This is the first time of maintenance man has come to my home and made a very professional impression on me I made sure to let him know that he impressed me.

I am waiting for my supervisor to determine what my work assignment will be through vocational rehabilitation. I can't tolerate much more of this poverty and always running out of money before the end of the month as well as not having the means to leave town because of not having adequate gas or enough money to spend even one night in a hotel

Friday, August 14, 2015

Sleep/or stay in bed

Even if I'm not tired I am forced to stay in bed and sleep as much asp ossible because the bodywide pain is excruciating.  Looking into an mri for the right shoulder arm and hand, the pain has been there for years and a bone is moving in and out of place, I cAN feel it popping.

There's no point in listing all of the symptoms but it's very inhumane.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Primal wound, adoption

Van gogh

It's excruciating pain

It's excruciating pain and it's invisible to everybody else because I don't talk about how my body feels. This is one of the best photos I have ever seen that so perfectly describes what it is like to live in my body from sunup to sundown