yes terday was my four year anniversary in mountain town and it's been a hell of a celebration. On Thursday night I got mildly food poisoned. I've been awake for about a week. I found out that you can have free counseling through the local college but I have tremendous Ambivalenceabout any sort of therapy or counseling because of my views on suicide.
I was telling my counselor on Friday that my body is my prison and that the joint and bone and muscle pain and weakness is absolutely unbearable. I made the mistake of trusting I made the mistake of letting my guard down
We had had three conversations about suicide in the past so I thought that I was safe I thought that it is safe to be myself. She knows how I feel about the fact that US society doesn't want animals to suffer but they don't give a god damn about human suffering.
I told her that I was planning on joining final exit network and that people who try to do their own suicides by overdose is oftentimes a mistake because they end up failing in their lives are the worst for it.
in the midst of my diarrhea and nausia I hear bashing on my door on Friday night. the three cOpskept bashing and bashing and I didn't answer the door. Then I heard this is the police!
I came to the door and I said but I didn't call the police and the officer said we hear that you're planning on committing suicide by gAssing yourself.readers it's like a game of telephone I never said any such thing and I couldn't even imagine who would have called the police on me. They stayed for 30 minutes as I tried to convince them that I wasn't going to take my life todayand that some mistake had been made. the officers tried to get me to discuss what I told my therapist, I ask the cup and my legally required to tell you what I discussed with her? He said no your not I said okay well then I'm not going to say anything
If police think that you're going to take your life on that given day in some cases they force you into psychiatric hospitals which is the most ridiculous place on earth for people who are pro- euthanasia or people who have decided that they cannot go on indefinitely with the suffering of their disease.
I was absolutely furious that the counseling department did this to me and I told them so in a letter which I carefully worded. I told them to stay away from me and not make any more contact with me, I told my Facebook friends that going into therapy or any sort of counseling is a huge risk for anyone who carries a Pro euthanasia Pro assisted suicide stance.
SynchronisticAlly I am watching Law and Order SVU it's the episode entitled mercy where the mother murders the daughter so the daughter doesn't have to go through a life of suffering with a rare and painful disease
One by one I leave every agency in town one by one I leave every practitioner in town one by one I discover that there is gross and competence at every level in every segment of society this is something I've been blogging about since I started my blog 9 years ago and the problem is only getting worse
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